EDIT IS AT THE BOTTOM

Ugh...I’m not happy. I’m sorry to all for everything and everything. I’m past deadlines, I have things on dA that I would love to do, but I don’t have the time. My time is going to be focused on college, finding a job, and getting that damn driver’s license that keeps slipping away from me by that much. I’m stressed because of my friends; one of them confuses me when they’re being an egotistical bastard half the time. (You know who you are) But it’s not all the time. But when they do, it irks me to no end.

If anyone gives a crap, I’ll sneak in a briefing of what’s happened in the past month.
My dad and I had a talk about me going to college. I was getting this impression that he didn’t want me to go to college, and that the school that I wanted to go to, the one that I was planning on going to didn’t have any photography classes. I looked at the site, there are five classes for photography. So... I snuck around, applied to the college at the last minute, pulled SO many strings it’s not even funny, and got in. I’m taking the 2nd highest math class, and the 2nd highest English class, along with History (not my fave) but my dad didn’t know about his. I didn’t want him to tear my dreams down. This was something I was damn proud of. But... he found out anyway. Oh well. I feel for a little, but I got reassured that this is what I wanted to do. Only bad thing is that there are two guys that want to date me there, and I do NOT want to date them. *shudder* One is Sir-Clings-a-lot, who never lets go of me. (Today I saw him, and all he said was “hi”. O_o I was freaking shocked.) the other? Whatever. He’s persistent. Determined for a date. Never going to happen, pal! Shouldn’t this kind of drama happen in high school...? so much stress was caused paying tuition. Kept going everywhere, and now FINALLY I got it all paid. But now I’m down to a measly $150 until I get a job. And I have insurance and a cell phone bill to pay plus things like shampoo and stuff! I’m going to die. I depend on that money for food! I’m never fed. =/
And if I got that damn license, I could get to my job easier if I had one! Gas is so expensive, I can’t be driving everywhere! FUUUUUUUUDGE!!!!!!!!!!! This sucks. I’m poor and I’m stressed. I need to get a job before I’m in the red, and I need to get the license before there’s snow on the ground. And with where I live, that could be at anytime, no joke. *bangs head against a concrete wall* I’m freaking screwed. No where to go. And I can’t ask for help because to me, it’s a sign of weakness. Damn it. >< Nothing goes well for me, ever. Ugh....
Sorry for that rant. It’s just what’s on my mind at the moment. Hell, every single moment. I don’t see any relief anytime soon...
~Kibou~

Edit: Violated

Ugh, I don’t think showering 10 times will fix this. The guy that is really persistent for a date? Well, it was his birthday yesterday, and he wanted a birthday date. I didn’t consider it a date, but I went over to his house. This is what happened on this “date” we watch Scrubs for a while, then I started to play a video game and he was role-playing on Gaia. But when we were watching Scrubs, I was comfortable where I was, on the edge of the bed. But NO! Not good enough for him. He kept putting his arms around me, and pulling me down on him, and wanting to hold me. I told him to stop, but he wouldn’t listen. I said I wasn’t comfortable with it, and kept saying, “Oh come on, you like it!” I shook my head, I really didn’t. The only guy that I am comfortable with being that close to me is my nii-san. Probably because he’s not going to try to make-out with me! (This guy tried to kiss me 4 times!) I told him not to do that either. Never listened. He said that he’s liked me since we were in elementary school, and that we had chemistry back then. *shudders* what the cheesecake? He’s so pathetic! Pretty much everything I said, maybe about 95%, he just agreed with me. I said I loved watching storms, and think lightening is beautiful. So does he. I said I liked a lot of things, and guess what? So does he. I know that he was just saying that. Ugh. If he talks to me ever again, I’m going to bitch at him and tell him how he made me feel. It was disgusting. And if he still doesn’t leave me alone, Oh Nii-san.....! XD Nii-san doesn’t like him, I can tell. I just hope that Mr. Persistent will heed my warning and stay the hell away from me. >.>